Monday, November 16, 2009

Slowly But Surely

I feel like I'm drowing.  Drowning in a tub full of dirty dishes, dirty laundry, sweeping (sweeping refering to the massive amounts of dog hair I have to clean), and dusting.  Timothy can be very helpful, the problem lies with the fact that we are both insanely busy.  I just started basketball and Timothy has been really busy with work fact, pretty sure he's going to be working 60+ hrs all the way up to Christmas :(.  So when neither of us get home until 8 (this is early compared to some nights) all we want to do is eat and spend time with each other.  We definitely do not want to be cleaning.  Fast forward to the weekend...Woo Hoo!! We finally get some time off (well unless he has to work on Saturdays...but it's all good) so who wants to be cleaning on the weekends.  Case and point...ever seen that show where the British women come in and do a massive clean to some of the dirtiest houses I've ever seen? Well that's what needs to be done to our house.  Not only is it an older house (which I'm convinced get dusty quicker and need constant care) but we've never actually gotten caught up in cleaning (I'm talkin the whole house here) since I moved in...which was a couple weeks before the wedding!! That's 6 months PEOPLE!  I know our house isn't that bad...but I feel like it looks like this...

Ok so I know our house isn't that bad, but sometimes I feel like it.  I keep telling myself that "this week I'm going to get it done" or "this weekend I'm just going to have to buckle down and do those 15 loads of laundry" but it never gets done.  I can honestly attribute this inability to get a handle on things to the fact that I can't keep on top of the kitchen.  Let's face it...I like to cook...and my husband likes to eat...good food.  All of you out there know that in order to cook good food sometimes you have to dirty a lot of dishes
*If any of you beg to differ, please give me tips!
So my kitchen sometimes looks like this...literally..

Well not exactly literally...if you've been in our house you know that only in my wildest dreams would my kitchen even be that big.  But that's neither here nor's our first house!  This feeling of being overwhelmed led me to have the biggest breakdown of our married life so far.  I'm talking MASSIVE BREAKDOWN.  I think it went something like this (yes I'm airing my emotional dirty laundry to the world...I don't care) it as is, I'm pretty sure I never paused in this rant, so there's no punctuation..get over it!

"I just don't feel like I can keep a handle on this house I know that most of it is because we never really had the house clean when I moved in but it's really starting to wear me down I want to have a clean house where people can come over and I want to cook and clean and do all those wife things and I know that you would help me if you could but we're both so busy and now I don't feel like I'm being a very good wife and I'm really starting to lose it and I don't want you to think that I can't handle a house let alone children someday and I just don't know what to do anymore!

So my amazing husband looks at me, smiles, tells me I'm a great wife, and asks me this very poignant question..."Did you just have that breakdown because you really are overwhelmed? Or was it because you just haven't cried in awhile?"  I love him! Let's face it, I hadn't had a good cry in awhile, ladies, you know what I'm talkin about!  So I dried my eyes and we ventured off to the big city to pick up this

Yes that's right! It is officially the end of the road for those dreaded yellow gloves and sponges (well except for when I wash my stoneware and my anodized cookware, but who cares!) I am so extremely excited and unless you have lived without a dishwasher, you may not understand this...That one little trip to the big city changed my attitude towards I look forward to the day when that sucker gets put in so I can do dishes! I know the feeling will wear off but let me live in this dream world for at least a little while...

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